Sorry

I am sorry for yelling at you
I am sorry for being so rude
I am sorry that I can't make it for you
I am sorry that I don't have license
So that I could go out by myself
Don't need to rely on anyone

I am sad, yelling at you was not that cool.
Thanks for forgiving me.

I am so sorry, daddy.

Grieving...

It is the hardest time for me.
I couldn't quibble with people anything.
Because they will only believe that they were right always, like I did.

Why can't everyone be considerate?
I am working for money.
But in sake of money, I found happiness there.
Simply because I work happily everyday.

Why can't they just support me mentally?
It is much enough for me.
I always hope for a warm sweet greeting from you guys when I back.
A simple question : How's your work today? Full house today? Is it tired?
Like what my dad did...
*It is warmth enough*

I don't hope anything more for now.
One thing, stop saying those words.
I knew I hurted you guys, in your mind-set.
But you hurted me as well in my mind-set.

I'm not like what you thought.






Loves

New York State Of Mind

Some folks like to get away, take a holiday from the neighborhood
Hop a flight to miami beach or hollywood.
Im taking a greyhound on the hudson river line
Im in a new york state of mind.

I seen all the movie stars in their fancy cars and their limousines,
Been high in the rockies under the evergreens,
But I know what Im needing and I dont want to waste more time-
Im in a new york state of mind.

It was so easy living day by day
Out of touch with the rhythm and the blues,
But now I need a little give and take,
The new york times, the daily news...

It comes down to reality-and its fine with me cause Ive let it slide,
Dont care if its chinatown or riverside,
I dont have any reasons,
Ive left them all behind-
Im in a new york state of mind.

Im just taking a greyhound on the hudson river line-
cause Im in a new york state of mind.

Photo Shooting Session In Abandoned Company At Glenmarie

Link ME to sab-freethought's photos blog.

Wake up!

You know what I'd realized suddenly?
Do we, us, girls, need to stop by, need to slow down, for those guy's sake?!

NO! We move on!

Don't slowed down yourself just because of that!
Don't stopped by just because of that!
Don't show them that we are weak!

NO, we are strong enough if we were smart enough!!!

当大家

当我叫你醒时
当我等的不耐烦时
当我等着你的答复时
当我来经时
当我想吃蛋糕时
当我想你时
当我做工时
当我想得很负面时
当我很累时
当我打你电话打到你电话都没电时
当我忍无可忍时
当我认为我没错时
当我玩得开心时
当我留了再留的泪水干了
当我心痛了再痛时
当我没站在你立场想时

当我打着这篇部落格时
我的心是痛的时

当你醒来心情不好时
当你脾气暴躁时
当你不想理我时
当你根本不想回我信息时
当你不得空时
当你大声骂时
当你认为你没错时
当你对着我脸黑，对人家嘻嘻哈哈时
当你等得不耐烦时
当你根本没那个罪恶感时
当你睡觉时
当你根本就听不到电话响时
当你得不到你想要时
当你说声: 我心淡了
当你说声：不要烦我
当你说句话就推走责任时
当你很避忌来我家时
当你没站在我立场想时

当你看着这篇部落格时
你的心是痛的还是生气还是仇恨时

当以前的你不是酱时
当以前的我不是酱时
当以前的我们不是酱时
当以前的人家没对我们的吵架感到显时

当大家都醒悟时
这篇文章，什么都不是了。

原来我已不认识周围，她与他们...

刚被朋友放了飞机，告诉我，他没有力跑步。

心情低落，就随我小弟弟与我的佣人，三个一起跑到游乐场。
当时的天气，天黑黑的，也只不过是六点多而已。
发现到的是，周围的情形，与你坐车经过的情景，是完全不同的。
原来，走在天黑黑里，要下雨的情况，是多么的舒服。
原来，我家附近多了一只新狗狗，超得意的！
原来，我家角头间家的狗狗会唱高歌的哦！

原来，我可以跟我弟弟他们玩到这么开心的。

在游乐场跑步，跑了两圈多，发现自己的体力，已达到 ‘老人水平’ ，气喘下喘下。

不久，手上开始感觉到雨的降落。再听，有人喊道 :‘ 下雨啦下雨啦！’
接着，我们三个，run like hell，回家去了。
三个，边淋雨边跑，当时的雨，是不冷的。

到家了，想想下，既然都淋了雨，我与小弟弟约了大弟弟，一起出去淋雨。
开心，我们玩游戏，输了就要罚站淋雨。
好久都没淋雨了。感觉好不错！

看到妈妈的车回到了，三个就好像做错事的小孩，跑进屋里，冲去冲凉房，冲个干净。




就酱，我又是时候要面对她了。
不出我预料，又被骂了，无时无刻，无事也找事骂。
也就酱，心情又被打击了，超不想面对她，超不想呆在家，就算在外面没事做也好，我都不想呆在家面对她。跟她，再也没共同话题讲了。代沟好深。

时间。

Sentimental Freaking Dead Wack!

P/S : It's a random post, to vent my feeling out to here, shut your ass off if you don't wanna read these...



Back to emo life again. Being such a sentimental person recently. And I don't know what the hell was happened.

Anxious, scare, miserable, emo are controlling me nowadays.

And I found out, I have bunch of friends! I do have them! But I'm doubt about I have friends that listen to me, listen to my voice, be by my side whenever I'm sad like hell, whenever I wish that somehow I can talk to at midnight, or even morning 3, 4 to 5am... Yes, there's only one. There's always one. He listening to me everytime, every moment. He listening to my tears, my speak out, my miserable, my everything. He console me, consult me, even though I knew he's busy, rushing his works or whatsoever... But thanks, I appreciate it. Thank you.

Sent Shawn a letter, it's about us. Because I thought that's the only solution for now. So I wrote it in the morning of 5am, an hour to wrote it, then folded it, and cried then sleep...

Passed to him the next night, and told him to read it whenever he's home. He read it.

Everything I've done, ineffectual, useless. My letter to him, a waste maybe? Or he had done his next move and I don't know anything about it at all? Maybe at least let me know about what were you thinking after finished the letter maybe?

I don't know. I don't know anything.

Watched 13 going on 30 few days ago, it was damned sweet. And I found out, it couldn't happened in my life ever. And I then asked my friend why these didn't happened in my life at all? And he said, these are not reality, it's a movie. And I don't agree with him at all, because it's not that kind of fairy tales stories, these, can be happened in reality!!! If you ever been a lil' bit more romantic, yea, it will be. It can be happened.

And I was sad after that. Truly sad like hell. I'm crying again, crapping to my another friend, which don't know what I've crapped about at all, and giving me such comments that made me even more worse... So I decided not to talk with him. And being alone, one for sorrow...

I think this post was bored you guys, you know, just to vent it out everything, actually not everything. I hate to being like that, such useless lifestyle. And yet, I'm stress, no one had known my stress. To start washing people's hair. 1st of March, will be on this sunday, and might be is the day that I started my work. And yet, no one teach me to wash hair yet. And I'm getting worried about that...

Wanna feel beloved. Unprotected. Smile to me more please. Please, scold me lesser but love me more... I'm scare.

Give me some guts for me to get my ass off from here please!

CNY 2009

Shawn helped for hair cut before CNY =)

And this was cut by me. Finishing by Shawn *grins

At granma's house. Preparing for steamboat yoy!!!

My cousin.

I got these only after fighting like hell for food. -.-'

Went the PD's seaside late in the night with my man, my cousin and her bf.

I felt relief because there's you whenever I go everywhere.

Sweetest couple.

Silly guy shuffling on the beach. *duh

And the time started!

Rock it!!!

Rock to the MAXX!!!

Rock your socks off!!!!

Notice his hair *funny

Just another one champion sound
Me and Shawn about to get down!

Hearting you. Happy CNY.

And soon : Happy Valentine's Day =)

One Day

Plan has been canceled for tomorrow.

Having a complicated mood now.

I knew I'm stupid useless trash.

But please stop bragging on me like that.

I felt that I'm not being respected.

I am a human being, please do remember that.

What you've said, I will remember it. Including those sucks arrogant ego brainless pointless childish words and sentences.

What will happened in this 5 years or 10 years, you wouldn't know simply because you are not GOD, so don't judge it.

I will prove to you, that you were wrong now. What you had said, regret of it.

You were really way too much. Please, please stop it. Please stop saying those hurting words and sentences. It's so poisonous. So pain. It's hurt.




I wanna escape from these just for one day.

Give me space, give me the only one day.

God Bless

Lately, got plenty of photos haven't upload, so stay tune.

And tomorrow, gotta go MidValley to interview for jobs.

GOD BLESS.

Bad day

Having a superb bad day today.

1st : Officially announce that my lappie has died in this evening.
Reason : I've put my laptop on chair *stupid, and watching movie while folding the paper bags. Then when I was away from my territory, my brother did not noticed the wayar of laptop, and kicked it accidentally and then, my lappie fell onto floor. *inner cases dropped out, mati, the end.

2nd : Had a appointment with babes at night, but FFG them.
Reason : Shawn gotta work tomorrow, and yet he was so damn tired due to the lack of sleep yesterday night (beer session, two buckets by both of us at cafe, and liquor Dewar at home and hang out until 5something in the morning, yet he woke up at around 9am), so I've canceled the outing with my babes *ilovemyman

3rd : Menstrual period. *superb hatred to it


FRUS! Thinking of the pictures, documents, songs EVERYTHING!!! GONE!




I'll say these to myself : FUCK OFF you arsehole! Stupid idiot RETARDED you!!! How could you put the lappie on A CHAIR??? urgh. Couldn't describe anymore of my stupidity minded!!!

Messed up

Went to Bangsar just now, Laogong accompany me go for shopping awhile, because normally shop will be closed at around 9pm... So we reached there around 8pm? And paid Rm10 for an hour parking *god damned it And yet I just bought one knee line pant, with soft denim fabric *sort of... which cost Rm69.90
And finish.... (I didn't even buy a cloth!!! Damn it!)

Then went to yamcha with my buddy Siew due to his flight to Korea with family tomorrow night. Had a great time too. And then went to Laogong's house take something and came back to my home sweet home. The happiest news is Laogong gonna stay overnight at my house tonight! Tomorrow gotta wake up earlier to help my whole family for hair cutting *pity pity =D

And then when I went into my room, oh holy crap, now only I realised that my room was so damned messy!!! My god, gotta clean it up tomorrow!!! *FRUS!

Fuck the paper bag!
See?! There's plenty of UPM paper bags around.

And this is the extremely messy room that no one ever had!
Paper bags around, table, lappie, bla...
See the radio side table, wow! Scary!
There's no way for me to walk around.

And these posters, which pasted years ago, damned, still can tahan! Walao, gotta change it soon!

So that's all for tonight.

Hectic Thursday!

Tuesday late in the night, chatted with babe Alicia, I'll be the organizer of this outing session on Thursday for the 1st time. Because, what they said, I am always a 'fei gei wong', ffg every time. *if asked to go for club la...

So, for the 1st time, organizer wo, must plan until sui sui lol. So asked my sweetheart Sha and Rue Ann too, and told them that I will be reach KLCC at around noon (gotta go to MIA to pick up my mannequin, drive back MID, then KTM and LRT to KLCC *phiew such a long journey) Then, I told darling Ming that I'm gonna be at KLCC on Thursday, and I knew that she's going for the kent event at night, so I told her to contact with me if she were there!

And so it is, it's THURSDAY!


Initially, they were sitting at KLCC's starbucks while waiting for me (yes, I'm late again, but I've told you guys yoy! *grins) Then, when I reached KLCC, went to meet them and chit chat awhile with Rue Ann too, and accompany Rue walked to MIA Ampang which is around KLCC, and then only we went to Quattro Spring Lounge for drinks!

Babe Sha and Alicia

Chatted alots and lots and lots! And I found out that I'm really outdated of their news. Have to ffg them lesser and lesser to update myself.
What they said : Nowadays got Shawn lol, so keep on ffg and outdated lu! When you will be get married ar? It will be very soon lol don't you? Next time ar, you will be bringing children and hang out with us lol, and keep on busy to feed them your milk *mygod... (keep on teased and laughed by them, so paiseh... ahah.)

And then Darling Ming came and called me from behind.

My first impression : Aww, that's Ming! So cute, and taller than me *shame shame
This naughty girl ponteng class leh weih! She said that she wanted to meet me up ma (same to me) so sacrificed the class... *don't know true or not, teehee.. Because I gotta back earlier to meet Shawn up at MidValley.
Introduced my darling to babes, and chit chat.
And soon, babes Sha and Ali gotta go due to their preparation for kent event at night.
And left Ming and I. Chit chatting as usual. Yea, we do really had a very great great time. I like to chat with her and she's a nice person.

*photo credit to Ming

Drank mugs of beer
Yes, couldn't deny, I get lil' bit tipsy *lame
But I did had a superb great time with them!

After billed, Ming and I walked to KLCC's Kinokuniya for books while, and chaw to meet up Shawn... And my face was like damned red that time, paiseh...

That's all for Thursday, it's so summary of this, but seriously, I miss the chit chat and beer sessions with babes so much. Thanks =)

Pathetic

Currently, I seriously got no mood at all!

It's pathetic enough for me to keep eating ikan bilis (helloo, ikan bilis?!) because of I can't have chicken wings to eat!

It's okie, for me, ikan bilis quite nice. Ok.

Out of that, I am damned missing him. Wanted to chat with him, ok, then he said gonna play online games with brother while, so we were chatting while he playing game. Then here it is :

He : Laopo chat later, going to boss (which is hitting some kind of powerful characters, so called boss), sorry.
I : =.=' (Then I was like straightly sian diao, damned?!)
He : You angry la (walao eh, macam ni pon boleh)
*Then, I didn't reply to him......
He : Sorry


And so it is, I'm blogging alone now, with ikan bilis, jazz songs...


Okie, what's next? After these sad boring pathetic short stories, I'm gonna update you guys tomorrow with the exciting and memorable moments with my babes today at Quattro Spring Lounge! Wuhoo~





-StayTune-

Wednesday

Felt myself was seems like abit isolated, whole day staying inside the room, folding folding and keep on folding, and watching some movies which I've seen before...

Wednesday yoy, thinking of Wednesday, YES! pasar malam! But I knew I couldn't go, because Shawn feel so tiring of works these days (CNY ma)... So... Haih.

Out of that, I'm waiting for my babe's answer whether she can be present for lunch at KLCC with others darlings or not. If plan works, have to discuss with Shawn that I'm going to school to take my mannequine back then go to Mid and then KLCC to meet them. Owh, been a long long while didn't hang out together. So I hope that we could make it... Excited!!!

Erm, nothing much to say, just missing him so much...

Easy Tuesday

Nothing much to do nowadays. I did interviewed for A JOB last week, and yet haven't get any reply from that. So what I think, FAILED......

CNY is around the corner, so gonna search for job after CNY... And what am I doing in these days?

Missions from Shawn's mum :
Mission 1 : Folding UPM's paper bag (is like those education fair's gift bag from each college)
Mission 2 : Watch 'zhu guang bao qi'... (now was like watched until episod 59! And left one more episod for me to watch later T.T , other episod, have to wait then...) So, it's going to be a mission completed then =)

Now, I'm lying on bed, resting after my lunch, and I'm gonna finish the last episod of Disc 12, then start my work (folding thingy)...

Awww.... I miss Genting Klang, I miss my housemates, I miss my friends, I miss the scence of C-20-7, I miss the guava, I miss WCG Snooker Centre, I miss 8ball, I miss Bangkok Taste, I miss I miss I misssssss..........

Its more than enough!

STOP SAYING ANYTHING THAT YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING OF IT!!!

STOP ACCUSING ME JUST BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT THAT WHAT YOU THINK WAS RIGHT!!!

STOP SAYING THOSE WORDS WHICH MADE ME LOSING MY DIGNITY EVERY TIME, BREAKING MY CONFIDENT DOWN AND HURTING MY FEELING!!!

PLEASE KEEP YOU VOICE SLOWER BECAUSE I DO REALLY FELT IRRITATED OF IT!!!

YOU AIN'T A CHILD ANYMORE, SO STOP DOING SUCH CHILDISH THINGY!!!

IT'S MORE THAN ENOUGH!!!!!!

He said : It's empty.

IN NEED OF ALCOHOL!!!





_hurray_

To my ever previous ♥YOU♥

It's going to be our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY in about 21 hours later.
We're not going to plan anything special for our anniversary and any special outing though.
But for me, as long my laogong with me in that moment, it doesn't matter with those stuffy anymore.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

One year. One year anniversary. For me, it's neither easy nor hard. To be frank, I never been more than 3months with my anyone of ex, so don't even talk about a year. Hence, whoever can be with me more than half an a year, meaning that, I do really love him so much that I couldn't lose him. And I'm so lucky that I found you! We had gone through so many things, happy sadness disappointment... Everything you have done, I know it's for my own good, it's all for my best even though you were being blamed for times and times, just because I thought I was always the right one.

Day goes by, what I've done, I have to be responsible. Once I made this decision, I knew, you will be there, supporting me, accompany go through these, and we will study hard, learn hard, work hard together, and I knew, we could even start on our own business in the future, and I knew, we could have a better and even best life in the future, and I knew, we could have two little cute most-handsome and prettiest babes in the world, a girl and a boy and we would name them Lee Kah Wai 李家伟 for boy and Lee Kah Hue 李家惠 for girl and it would be like their father's name Lee Kah Choon. *ahahahha, keep on laughing when I'm writing these... And we could grow them up perfectly then we could retire from our business, and they will continue it with flying colors... Then, we will of course, do something we like to do, travelling of course, and there will be two old people walking travelling around holding DSLR camera, backpack-ing whole bag of lens (gila orang tua ni), high-tea together, go theme park and play together (walao, heart attack), eat ice cream, kfc, mcdonald, cheese cake, pizza, chocolate, popcorn, watch movie together, smoke together, cycle together and even swim together (scare people, 'cao pei po and cao pei gong')...
And of course, I knew we can make it!

I love you, I love us!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Laogong, you are the one that I treasured.
Laogong, you are the one I love beyond comprehension.
Laogong, I'll be forever thankful because of your appearance in my life.
Laogong, I'll be forever grateful for each day you gave me.
Laogong, I was blessed because I was loved by you.
Laogong, the closer I am to you, the happier I am.
Laogong, you make me, a very happy person.
Laogong, I can't see a future that does not include you.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥


♥I adore you
♥I cherish you
♥I am devoted to you, laogong!

New shoes for mummy

After I've officially announced to quit my course, these days, I did two different jobs for last two days. Friday, I did a job which was being a respondant as a female smoker. Being asked for questions about cigarettes and smokers. And I got RM 160 if I'm not mistaken. Easy job for this. Saturday, I went to MidValley, for WiMAX again, in front of the entrance to carrefour. That was an easy but yet tiring job. Whole day, standing there, giving out flyers, and it was so boring. I got no business there. So end up with 'ZERO', which means my salary of that day = RM50.

And today, I went to MidValley again around 7pm, to interview some jobs accompanied by my sweet lovest man. I took out my notebook and check (noted down shops that have vacancies last few days ago), and we went to 'ROOM' for the interview. They said will let me know within these two days. Then, I stopped for the interview. Hoping that they will approve me for the job. So we went to Vincci+ to buy heels because heard from my sister that there's discounts there. And I picked a shoes for mother instead for me because I seldom wear heels. So there it is.

It cost RM179 before discounts if I'm not mistaken.
After 70%, it's cost only RM53.30!
The most important, made with leather.

What I love the most is, the red underneath.

Then, we went for dinner at Maluri *炭炒面... Two people ordered three person's dishes, it was like freakishly LOT! End up we dabao back. -.-

Being rich, play with attitude;
Being poor, play like nothing else.

Being rich, shop like watering flowers;
Being poor, shop like eating a flower.

Being rich, talk like a speaker;
Being poor, talk like a spider.

Being rich, smile like a spotlight;
Being poor, smile like a no-light.

Being rich, rules like a star;
Being poor, rules like a shit.

Genting Trip 30th Dec 2008 - 1st Jan 2009*

1st of all, wishing everyone have a superb great better year in this 2009!
Where did you guys celebrate in the new year eve?
Yea, I went to Genting again, to celebrate this 2009 new year eve with my lovest one, my dearest superb hearted buddies and a couple who are shawn's friends. Again, watching the fireworks in Genting, same with the previous year. Genting's fireworks, superb nice and marvellous, and I do had a wonderful moments with my buddies. But unfortunately, my camera out of battery in the evening of new year eve!!! So *stupid!!!! So couldn't post up any photos of fireworks, and wonderful moments with my buddies in the whole journey. But there's still some photos have taken geh....That's what I wanna share with you guys =)

Having around once we reached Genting at 30th dec night.
Actually it's considered as 31st, because it was midnight -.-'

Buying two tins of beer, which cost RM 12.50 per tin! *nvm, forgiven
To start on our drunk night journey with malibu and absolute vodka.
Of cause, in our apartment at Gohtong Jaya.

Merry Christmas#
And Happy New Year 2009 $$$ *global economic -.-'

The next day in the evening, around 4pm.
It's started to have traffic jam on the way to Genting.

*kissing

A new fashion bandana
Bandaged by Miss Sabrina =D

Just to showing off his hair, set by Miss Sabrina again
Which it's actually looked awkward

Mwahx mwahx to my buddies
Hearting them so much ^^

People around were getting pack

Couple of the year : Ewing loves Agnes

Started to cam whore
*tahaaa

And started to be stupid*

I'm normal again, eventually.
With my beloved one

She's chubby and cute but yet cool sometimes

Okie, here's the classic one.
He's trying to kill my camera!!!

And then he found that I've captured his classic one

Well, I guess he's angry =D

You know I ♥ you more than anyone

He's acting cute, I guess... Hmm...

Started the gay's cam whore-ing moment

They were trying to act like celebrity and I was acting like a tracker

Insane lunatic *them

I need your boobs...

I'm wearing skirt yoy!

Archery...

Yes, Champion of the year!

Weeee* That's all
The happiest moment for me to celebrate new year eve with my dearest buddies.
From left to right : Siew, KCK, Shawn(beloved), Kyra, Me
(one more else is ChewTank who holding the camera)

LOVE YOU GUYS SOSOSOSO MUCH!

P1WiMAX

A modem of P1WiMAX

Packet 1 which is a one of the listed company has made history with Malaysia's first ever WiMAX launch on 19th August 2008 which has been widely anticipated.

So how much is the subsciption? Are subscribers tied to a contract?

Ok, WiMAX is offering 4 packages, which 2 are for Personal users and another 2 are for business users. They are offering 1.2Mbps and 2.4Mbps plans. From first look, the rates are competitive with 1.2Mbps as low as Rm89/month for 2 years subscription or Rm99/month for 1 year subscription. For those who crave higher speeds, 2.4Mbps is offering at a much higher price at Rm199/month for 2 years subscription or Rm229/month for 1 year subscription.


So, let's talk about first month bill :
Registration Fee : Rm 100
Activation Fee : Rm 50
Stamp Duty : Rm10
Installation Fee : Rm 80

Everything has to be paid in the first month bill include the monthly charge of your package for example : 1.2Mbps Personal one year contract package : Rm99. So total up the 1st bill which are registration fee and bla and monthly charge EXCEPT the installation fee (you can install yourself, it's easy : plug and play).

Key benefits :

1. No fixed phone line needed like ADSL. (Save up to Rm49)
2. Service activation within 24hours
3. Plug and play (easy)
4. 15 days satisfaction guarantee (which is if you are not satisfied with WiMAX, you can returnit within 15 days, but might be charged with demonstration fee because the modem is considered as second-hand modem when you returned it.)

For those who subscribe before end of this month which is 31st December 2008, you will get a FREE modem which worth Rm999.

Here's now, explaining why am I talking about these promotion thingy of WiMAX. Yea, yesterday, was working like hell at Cineleisure. Promoting WiMAX and gave out flyers for whole day from around 12pm to 10pm... There's 4 of us working and standing in front of cineleisure (our counter). Shawn, KCK, Sunny*(a fit guy from california fitness centre) and I.

*WiMAX promotion FREE modem!!! (Keep on screaming : WiMAX!!!) -.-

Tired but yet enjoy.
Pinky shirt, quite nice yoy.
(Photo taken once I reached home at 12something midnight)